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Messy College Life

"What had made you so engrossed?" Samaria was shouting at me from the mobile screen. "You have stop taking interest in my narration." She was talking about the famous webseries she had started watching and how she was excited to share about the story plot with me. As according to her, none showed as much of interest in her rants as I did.

"Nothing..." I attempted to brush it off. I wasn't sure if she wanted to hear about them.

"What is it?" She asked getting concerned. "Is there something troubling you?"

I provided a small nod. "Things are getting messy in the friend group. They had an actual fight, can you believe it?" She widen her orbs in horror.

"That's very..." She kept it incomplete. I nodded. "What was the reason?" She inquired, showing slightest interest in the topic.

"Zara's claim about Aarav cheating on her." Samaira was staring at me in shock. Her orbs widen in pure horror.

"He did?" She inquired, fury emerging from within her. "I hadn't expected anything else from him." Samaira continued with her assumptions about Aarav. She never appreciated him neither she adored Ehaan.

"It could be a false claim. He sounded broken," I was attempting to defend Aarav. In the slightest part of my heart, I was convinced about his innocence.

Samaria passed me an annoyed look. "Zara won't put a false claim on her best friend." She was staring at me in disbelief. "That's the reason, I am concerned about you." She shook her head at the thoughts planning in her head. "You attempt to find good in the most cruel of individual. They can't be trusted and they won't change from their habits." Samaira paused for a minute, "Aarav is known to be a Playboy and he will act as one."

"Love has the power to change," I defended my views. "You had seen it! You have experienced it! Varun had attempted his level best to change for you."

"If he had changed, he wouldn't have broken up with me." Her comment made me realise my blunder. The mention of Varun made her defensive.

"I am sorry," I apologised. "I wasn't intending to..." She halted me in between, I could see the look of disappointment in her orbs.

"We will talk later, I am not in a mood." With that as a final statement, she hanged the call. I was feeling a sense of guilt. I had hurt her with my words. I shouldn't have mentioned Varun. I hesitated before typing an apology and sending the message to Samaira.

I attempted to distract my mind from the guilt and concentrated on my project. Things weren't that bad! I noticed as I read few words noted down. Aditya had helped alot to jot down those information. I frowned as I recollected of him being cousin of Ved.

I was unsure, what to feel about it! Just being Ved cousin's doesn't make him wrong, right? But I was certain that the rest won't approve of my friendship with him. I shook my head. I had made only one friend yet I wasn't allowed to consider him as my friend. I shove off those thoughts as I forced myself to concentrate on the matter at hand.


I was sitting on a vacant table in the cafeteria. For a change none of my friend had entered into the cafeteria. Maybe they were busy with their upcoming football matches. I had brought my novel with me to accompany me during the break.

"Hey," a voice grabbed my attention from the novel. I raised my head to glance at Aditya. His lips forming into a beautiful smile. "Aren't we going to library, today?" He inquired hesitating a little.

I passed him a reassuring smile. "I thought you won't approve of my presence."

"Why would that be?" He sounded confused as he grabbed a chair beside me. He seemed more friendly and expressive when we were alone. Typical trait of an introvert.

"After the cafeteria incident," I pointed out, sounding little embarrased. I had almost ignored him after it!

He shrugged his shoulder, "it was nothing related to me." He paused for a second, lost in thoughts. "I don't get along with my cousin." He continued, "I don't approve of his lifestyle. He is way different from me." I nodded, I agreed with his words. His orbs glanced at me in concern. "I am sorry for the way he acted with you." He addressed while I passed him a reassuring smile not having enough words to express it.

"I hope, you won't mind being my friend?" He was staring at me with hope. My heart melted at his sincerity. He sounded genuine. I wanted to trust him. He hadn't provided me with any reasons to mistrust him. Yet I had my trust issues. I had being fooled before. I shook my head wanting to wipe those thoughts away.

"I don't," I voiced out the fact. A hint of smile shaping on his lips.

"But I would," came a comment from Anuj. I groaned before raising my head to glance at him. His orbs were shooting daggers at Aditya. He face turned into a scowl, not admiring his presence beside me. Sweat was coating his forehead indicating that he had rushed out of the playground. He was wearing the grey jersey. His orbs averted towards me, indicating the disappointment he held on me.

"Ruhi," Zara voiced the disappointment, Anuj was withholding within him. "You still want to be friend with him?"

I lowered my head, I was feeling guilty for taking a decision for myself. "Stop behaving as if she is a kid." Came a comment from the corner of the table. "She has the right to decide," Rudr huffed in annoyance. "You all needs to provide freedom to your friends." He was staring at them in displeasure. His hazel orbs glancing at me for a second. "She has the right to decide. Stop caging her into a cage, she is a bird and she should be given the right to fly high in the sky."

"We don't need your suggestion in our matters." Anuj groaned in fury. "Had you forgotten about your promise?"

"I do remember my promise," Rudr smirked, the devil one. "But you might have forgotten about the words you uttered during your fight with your beloved friend. You no longer consider them as your family."

I widen my mouth in shock. I didn't knew that! He couldn't say such a thing in anger? He couldn't just break from the family. They were his life! How could he? I could feel guilt slowly covering his beautiful feature but he brushed it off.

"Shouldn't you be more interested in your life than poking your nose in our matter?" Zara was growling in frustration. "Just fucking concentrate on you bloody sister's life. She is planning to get married to your beloved enemy." I found Anuj grabbing Zara's elbow, gesturing her to stop. Her orbs widen in horror as her orbs glanced in my direction. I was staring at them in confusion.

Rudr dried a laugh, their orbs glancing at Rudr with worry. "You're correct, I should worry about my beloved sister." He chuckled at his joke, his orbs directing towards me. His hazel blue orbs shining in mischief. I could feel that his mind was up with something. I saw a hint of concern in Zara's orbs before she rushed towards me.

"Ruhi!" She was trying to mask a smile at me. Attempting hard to hide the worry shaping in her mind. Her black orbs would glance at Rudr on equal instance. In fear! "You haven't spent a minute with me after arriving in JJD." She passed a fake glare. "I am aware you had made new friends but I deserve your attention as well." She didn't even allowed me to express any words as she grabbed my elbow and pulled me from the chair. "Sorry but I am in need of her company." She muttered to Aditya, not an ounce of remorse displaying from her tone.

"Don't worry, I would accompany him." Anuj interrupted as he winked at us. Zara dragged me away from the cafeteria. I was attempting hard to keep up with a phase. She had never reacted so weird. As if she was attempting hard to hide something from me.

She halted and my legs were allowed with rest. She sighed and lossen the grip on my elbow. We had walked out of the building. We were standing in the open field, could glanced at the players playing on the football ground. She was gasping for breath while I was waiting for an explanation.

She glanced at me, her lips forming into a fake smile. "Why don't we watch the practice?" She offered, I shook my head at her excuse.

Why were they so stubborn? Why they couldn't let me deal with my life? Why I had to take their permission to make friends?

"You shouldn't have done that!" I expressed my opinion, I shook my head as I took step forward. Boys were playing on the ground, wearing grey jersey. They seemed expert in the field. A tough competition was happening on the field. Something my friends would love to watch! I wasn't the same yet I had mold myself according to their taste. I had started watching those matches and understanding it.

"It's rude! Humiliating!" I kept expressing my feelings. "Not only to him but for me as well. I feel as if I am a prision. I have no freedom left!" I was attempting hard to keep my tears in check. I was hurt by their actions. They had humiliated Aditya on frequent intervals.

"We are not..."

"You all are!" I continued not providing her with the opportunity to defend themselves. I allowed those silence to greet us. I was scared of uttering something offensive to her.

As we grabbed a seat on those stairs and kept glancing at the players. She muttered, "they just care about you." She was trying to defend her friends actions. "They love you so they are trying to protect you."

My orbs were locked on the ground. Ehaan pushing the ball to his teammates while the other trying hard to grab from them. They were cursing in between, those ball used to keep transferring from one team to other. Our university was gifted with talented players.

"You're aware that you're different from us." Zara continued, "you won't be able to face the world."

"I am not as weak as you make it sound." I stood from my seat, my orbs glaring at Zara. I was acting defensive. I felt humiliated when they acted as if I was a kid that had no idea about the world. "Just because I am not one of you!" I screamed loud to grab the audience attention.

Zara was taken aback with my loud reaction. I had those feelings built up. I had taken everything and suppressed it. I heard footsteps reaching towards us.

"Stop interfering in my life." I almost requested her. "I am adult enough to know what's wrong and what's right."

"What wrong with you, Ruhi?" Aarav screamed at me. He came and stood beside Zara keeping distance from her but letting me know that he was supporting her. "Why had you turn so violent? We aren't your enemies."

"But you're not acting as friend as well!" I argued. I had lost my calm, tears kept rolling down my cheek in helplessness. I was ashamed of my sensitivity. My fragile heart! Why I couldn't be like them? Why I couldn't be strong? People took advantage of my soft nature. Just because I kept quiet, they think they could crumble me. I wanted to prove them wrong. I wanted to act strong!

"We shouldn't make such a big deal out of this," Zara interrupted. Her orbs glancing at the people accumulating around us. I felt her hands on my elbow but I jerked it away. I wasn't going to allow it again. She won't force me! I had my choice, my views and I had the rights to express myself.

"Don't touch me," I pointed my finger at her. "Hadn't I cleared myself," I orbs glaring at her. "I am not in need of a babysitter." My voice turning harsh, her orbs stared at me. Her face turning sad, she looked hurt by my choice of words. Suddenly, I felt guilty!

"Calm down, little lioness." I heard a hoarse voice. His arms wrapping around my waist, I could feel his chest behind me. "People are getting scared of you." He whispered in my ears.

That voice calmed my fury. That anger flowing down in form of tears. "Everyone can move, no more practices." Ehaan ordered and I heard footsteps moving. I lowered my head in embarrassment as I was turned to face the devil.

"Though I had been offered with your fury but Zara is shaken by it." He chuckled as he raised my head so I could glance at the beautiful pair of dark brown orbs. He was staring at me with concern while a smile had formed on his lips. "What is it about?" He raised his brow, his one hand still wrapped around my waist.

"She dragged me out of cafeteria." I was looking like a kid complaining about Zara. I heard a chuckle escaping from Tarun while I stamped my foot in annoyance.

"I had my reasons for that Ruhi." Zara was almost pleading with me to listen to her.

"They did it because I was sitting with Aditya." I was almost pouting before Ehaan. His orbs shinning in adoration, a smile causing his dimple to show up decorated on his beautiful face.

"You shouldn't do it," I heard Varun supporting Zara.

"Why shouldn't I?" I almost yelled but I heard Anuj laughed. I glared as he walked towards us. All our friends accumulated around us - me and Ehaan - in a circle. The rest of the audience had walked out.

"Yes! Answer my miss innocent, why shouldn't she?" I couldn't miss his teasing smile. I passed him a glare feeling defeated. They were making fun of me.

"I don't want to talk to any of you." I was of the verge of wiping the tears and moving away from them but Ehaan cupped my cheek forcing me to glance at his admiring dark brown orbs.

"They won't leave you so easily because they love you." He muttered pressing a kiss on my forehead as I closed my orbs to feel it. To feel his soft lips on my skin. His arms wrapped around pulling me to his chest. I nuzzled my head in his chest, breathing his cologne, those musky mint smell.

"She does act like a kid," commented Pia in the background spoiling my peace. Those feelings surfacing again.

"She is a kid to us," Anuj defended sounding stern with her remark.

"But that's not the way to behave Anuj." Commented Niti, I could hear displeasure in her voice. "She humilated Zara infront of the vast audience. Those rumors would soon pass around the university. She can't just disrespect any of you. After all, you're her senior and she needs to learn respecting her seniors."

"We might be her senior but she is like a small sister to us." Zara commented, "the angel that shine in our darkness. She has the authority to act as she please." Zara's words made me guilty. I had acted wrong! I shouldn't have done that!

"This acts are going to bring her bad limelight. It will only help the rivals to know that she is your weakness."

"They know that she is our weakness." Ehaan groaned at the thought of it. His grip tightening around me, pulling me closer if it was even possible. I could sense his fear in those words.

"Maybe we need to start making her compatible to fight rather than hiding her up." Aarav suggested, there was silence for a moment.

"What do you mean?" Pia inquired in confusion but was met with silence.

"I think, Aarav is correct." Anuj broke the silence. I was stunned finding them talking to eachother normally as if no fight had occurred between them.

I was attempting to pull from the hug but Ehaan was adamant not to leave me. "You're sweating," I attempted to put a palm on my nose, staring at him in disgust.

"A minute back I wasn't stinking," Ehaan passed a glare in my direction. I somehow managed to get out of his grip but was rewarded with intense stare planted on us.

"You shouldn't ignore the topic," Aarav urged while Ehaan seemed least bothered. His orbs staring at me with softness as if others were invisible to his eyes.

"Let's freshenup up," he winked at me as he wrapped his arms around my shoulder dragging me away from them and the football ground.

"Rudr might roll it out," Anuj's words halted Ehaan. His body turning tense. His orbs locked infront, face turning stern. He was attempting to hide his emotions behind the mask, conceal it from the world around him.

What would Rudr roll out? Why it stressed Ehaan so much? I was getting anxious. They were hiding something from me. Was that the reason Zara pulled me out of the cafeteria in rush? I was going to turn and ask about it to Zara but Ehaan's grip was tight around my shoulder. He wasn't allowing me to move an inch. He stood there for a minute before dragging me to his destination.

Silence accompanied us as we moved through the hallways. Those orbs were always fixed on us, especially on me. Numerous girls despised me due to my closeness with the most popular , bad gang. She didn't admired the attention I was offered by the bad gang.

Ehaan halted infront of the males washroom. I enlarged my orbs in horror. Was he serious? I wasn't going to enter it! Those males coming out of the washroom was passing us suspicious stare. Back in school I never understood those stares provided to us as Ehaan used to walk out of girls washroom along with me. I was innocent but people in our school wasn't. They had knowledge of everything!

Ehaan was on the verge of pulling me inside but I stopped him. Had he lost his senses? He might be comfortable walking into ladies washroom but I wasn't going to break rules. I won't get into the males washroom. Not after, knowing the thoughts shaping in students mind around us.

"What is it?" He stared at me in confusion.

"I am not getting in," I held my opinion firm. "You can go and freshenup, I will wait outside." I nodded at my statement, he frowned at my words.

"Why?" He sounded stunned with my decision. Wasn't the reason obvious? How was he so dumb?

"Because it's male washroom and I am not allowed in." I stared at him in annoyance. Why he had to always act stubborn? Couldn't he just listen!

"Not that they are going to charge a fee if you break the rules. Many girls are seen in washroom and many males had visited girls washroom. It's common!" He shrugged his shoulder, his hands making their way towards my wrist, wanting to pull me inside.

"Why is it that difficult for your generation to follow such a simple rule?" I stared at him in annoyance. I couldn't believe him! Why couldn't they just follow rules. There was no need in breaking them.

He stared at me a smirk playing on his lips. He turned to face me and that made me suspicious. What was shaping in his mind?

"My generation?" His dark brown orbs were dancing in amusement. His hands reaching towards my hairs. I was staring at him in embarrassment. He was going to take advantage of the situation. He was enjoying it. "Your hairs hadn't turn grey," he pointed out. He was attempting hard to hide the smile forming on his lips. "You don't seem that old in age."

I glared at him while a laugh escaped from his throat, a wide grin forming on his beautiful face. Allowing me access to glimpse at those dimples. He looked adorable when he smiled.

"I was saying..." I hesitated attempting to form a proper word. "I am not one like you," I pointed out. My orbs glaring at him. "The one to break those rules!"

"Surely," he inched closer, his orbs shinning in adoration. He adored my presence. He stared at me as if I was his world, the most beautiful woman. "You're nothing like me." His voice was soft yet broken. At equal instances the despise he held for himself was visible in the tone, he used. He hadn't yet healed from those wounds.

He shook his head as if attempting to brush those thoughts away. Our orbs locking with one another, he was leaning towards my face. My heart accelerating loud in anticipation. A hint of blush forming around my cheek.

"I can ever be like you," he mumbled. "The innocence those orbs contain," he continued staring deep into my orbs. Reading, examining those showering in my mind. He muttered as he pressed a kiss on my forehead. We heard a series of grasp leaving from audience around us. I got conscious as I peeped at them from the corner. This was embarrassing! His presence often forced me to forget about my surrounding. Those dark brown orbs could draw me into his ocean, resulting about the worl me.

His large cold fingers drawing pattern on my cheeks, least bothered about the orbs locked on me.

"Ehaan!" We heard an annoyed feminine voice. I never adored her presence yet I had to mask my emotions. "What are you doing here?" She rushed towards us forcing Ehaan to divert his attention from me to her. I didn't admired the way Ehaan offered her attention. He considered her close.

I needed to act understanding. I couldn't act like an insecure girlfriend. Just because he was dating me didn't meant he had to wipe off connection with other females yet I couldn't stop my heart from having such emotions. I was possesive regarding him. It was the fear that he would walk off. He would find someone better than me.

They were talking, their lips moving while my attention was fixed on my boyfriend. Ehaan Kashyap! Every orbs admired his beauty, every tongue praised his skills. He was everything that I wasn't! If he got someone better why he would stop for me?

He orbs averted to my direction while I lowered my head. Acting as if I wasn't admiring his features. I could glimpse at the smirk forming on his face.

"Take her to the dance studio," Ehaan commanded Pia. "I will freshenup and joint you all."

"Her?" Pia stared at me in confusion. "Audience aren't allowed," she attempted to reason out.

"She is a dancer," I could glimpse at the pride displaying on Ehaan's face. "One of the fine one," he praised, passing a smile in my direction.

The person who had insulted my dancing skill was praising me. I was nothing infront of the professional dancer yet I had improved over the years. Ehaan had helped me alot to understand some complicated steps. Yet I wasn't anywhere near the professionals.

"I?" I stared at Ehaan in horror. "I won't be able to match with those..." I shook my head in fear. I had seen many of those dancing videos. They had reached to more broad level of dancing. They used to jump from such heights, standing on one another. It was nothing which I described as dance. Some of them had mastered various styles of dancing.

"She is correct," Pia interjected. "She needs to be approved by the dance community."

"She will!" Ehaan had full confidence in me. "I know, she can win anyone's heart." I couldn't miss the dimple forming on his cheeks.

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