The wind blowing around was allowing me to divert my mind from recent events. I could glimpse at small kids jumping around, swinging on the swing. Their eyes shining in delight, mischief radiating from those innocent orbs. They were so far from misery, pain that life had to offer them in coming future. Their worry revolved around getting a larger share of chocolate to playing for hours. They were so unknown to the upcoming years of hardship.

My eyes strolled at every corner trying to escape from my pain. It was turning torture to pass my day in the familiar four walls. The memories that I anticipated would be my strength was slowly turning out to be my biggest nightmare. I couldn't even have a peaceful sleep without him jumping in my dream. He would call me, touch me. I could feel his presence around me yet I wasn't able to glance at him. I was shattering from within.